"Star Gazer" (Talisman)
This painting was a required process for training in Shiloh Sophia McCloud’s COLOR OF WOMAN method. A very intense and multi-layered process called “TALISMAN”— 35 steps, four months to complete. In this context “talisman” is meant to be a personal archetype which holds the answers to the following inquiries:
What am I here for? What is this about for me? What am I dedicating the process to? What are my challenges? Where do I have lack of clarity? What old wounds need to be cleared? What called me here?
During this extensive process, I was guided in meditation through nine doorways of imagination, receiving a key to my unique answers. Personally, I was struggling to find my sense of purpose in this world; how do I help me, first, in order that I may help others? I realized I needed to learn to listen and to hear my own inner voice, not the many outer voices. I needed to look at how I wanted to be in this world; what I wanted to offer to others; what I had to share that was uniquely mine; and I needed to ask if I could accept myself for what I felt and who I felt I was.
The wood canvas was blessed with holy water, an intention inscribed on the surface.
I am here to save myself. I am here to learn my own inner voice. I am here to accept myself and to learn to freely and confidently share myself. ~sfr 6-11-2014
The beginning strokes represented
1) my past (ultramarine blue) and my gratitude for each person & experience. There is value in all;
2) my present (quinacridone magenta) (feels like a roller coaster but here I am! Thank you!);
and 3) my future (green gold) This is the land of possibilities filled with all things. I can choose, I can create, and I can re-create.
The 1st Key to Doorway of “Awakening” – FREEDOM: representing the inquiry & process of being honest & in integrity with myself of how I have been being that is not working for me any longer. As I activate this key, I am admitting that “I AM now awake! Let me not go sleep!”
The 2nd Key to Doorway of “Realization” – ACCEPTANCE: I have awoken to the realization I have things that need to change, and I am willing to do my own work. I am experiencing a sense of fragmentation, and I am gathering the lost parts of myself. I have participated and allowed the dis-memberment. Now, I call each piece back to wholeness.
The 3rd Key to Doorway of “Integration” – COURAGE: Bring the self I was into the self I am creating. Healing happens naturally when I express my true self. Bring this work into my daily life. “I am calling my dreams into my Right Now!” Symbols were added to represent “calm confidence,” “courage,” and “creativity.”
The 4th Key to Doorway of “Revelation” – SELF ACCEPTANCE: what do I believe about myself? What are the new beliefs I will create? “I AM a child of the Divine with unique gifts & talents which are mine to express with JOY, Grace & Ease. It is OK to benefit from these talents. It is always a win-win situation. I celebrate myself. My sensual self is a gift to me & to others. I AM a vital part of this world with gifts to share with purpose. I have an abundance of Divine ideas.”
The 5th Key to Doorway of “Declaration” – KNOWING RE-MEMBRANCE: This is the portal to the conscious/unconscious realm. “No more will I deny who I AM! No more will I allow myself to feel less than! No more will I doubt my heart! No more will I deny my glorious, loving self! NO MORE! I AM whole. I AM calmly confident. I belong here on this earth & no more will I doubt this! I declare I Know & I re-member! No more will I deny who I AM!”
The 6th Key to Doorway of “Invitation” – CONFIDENCE / Self Love: This is the invitation to access what is inside, to what I was born with, a toolbox of my wisdom and gifts. “I need you to see how much you are LOVED, how talented & gifted you are. Your heart is as big as this world! LOVE! Love yourself! Love others! Just LOVE!”
The 7th Key to Doorway of “Invention” – INTEGRITY: believe in the purity of your intention. Google definition: “The quality or condition of being WHOLE or undivided, completeness.”
The 8th Key to Doorway of “Embodiment” – COURAGE: this is the doorway of taking action, of inhabiting the form I want to create. The luna moth showed up as an escort to my inner Divine world.
The 9th Key to Doorway of “Adventure” – LOVINGLY PLAYFUL: How do I make the reality of my life happen? What is possible if I relate to my life as an adventure?
Star Gazer has the following messages painted on her sides:
“Create the Extra-ordinary in the Ordinary!”
“I declare I know & I re-member! No more will I deny who I AM!”
“Life is adventure! What is possible?”
30”x 48”x 1.25” acrylic on wood panel
Conroe, Texas, USA
Sally Fuller Richard—All Rights Reserved
Star Gazer’s Message:
My feet are planted in this earth
My mind knows the stars
My heart integrates the two worlds
I have the content, you have access.
What is possible if I relate to my life as an adventure?
I am now living Every Day as a grand adventure!
I am now living Every Day as a grand adventure!
I am now living EVERY DAY as a grand adventure!
What is possible? Tell me, Star Gazer, tell me what is possible!
Freedom: a true sense of freedom. This is your world, your creation! Yes! It can all be done with Grace & Ease. There are no chains binding you, only your thoughts.
Clear your mind, open your heart, listen.
Acceptance: Can you accept where you are? Can you accept what you’ve created?
Can you accept the choice to re-create? To begin again? Can you accept being accepted? This will bring you peace.
Courage: Adventures require courage. Courage to move forward even when you don’t know what’s ahead. Courage to be still when it’s not time for movement.
Courage to see, hear, feel, taste, smell the experience!
Courage to ask; courage to be silent; courage to offer.
Courage to LOVE anyway! Courage to believe all is well!
Self-Acceptance: To be happy within yourself; to be free of needing other people’s approval. To feel your yummy, juicy, wild, playful self!
To dance anyway! To choose anyway!
Knowing Remembrance: Imagine yourself at that time when you KNEW who you are. When you re-membered you come from the stuff of stars!
Ahhhhhh, I see the Peace flowing back into your body!
Re-member! Feel the knowing smile come to your lips.
Confidence – Self Love: Calm confidence. You trust your inner voice.
You have gifts to share! You choose well for your body & for your soul.
Stop sacrificing yourself. No one is asking for that.
Love your body right now, right where it is.
The light will come back.
Integrity – Wholeness: Your heart & mind & soul & body are ONE
– integrated into Peace.
Ah, Courage, again. Why do you think I speak of Courage? It only seems scary.
Think of all the times you were afraid before. When you were on the other side of
the experience remember how you laughed at yourself for
the monsters you made in your head?
Even the worst experience – here you are! You cannot fail!
You may struggle, you may fall, but you will NOT fail!
Interdependence & Synergy: Can you see when you interact with others it can benefit everyone immensely. Your favorite line “no man is an island,” even the island
needs the water; without the water it is not an island.
When you are living an adventure, each person is a piece of the story!
Lovingly Playful: Remember that time as a child EVERY thing was an adventure – before they domesticated you with their own fears & guilts & shames?
GO back to that place. Remember your safety. Remember the game.
Remember the adventure of your life! Do NOT miss it! Do NOT miss any part of it! Relax into the knowing with your open heart! Play! Play! Play!
Be ready for the adventure to begin….NOW!
The sides of my paintings are painted red to honor the “Red Thread” tradition of many cultures. This tradition says that people who are destined to meet are connected by a red thread from birth. The thread may tangle and stretch, but it will never break.